For the past few weeks on Freeing Sisyphus, I've been focused on a theme of being positive, of seeing doorways of opportunity instead of focusing on the what ifs of anxiety and fear that dominate so much of our life.
Yesterday as I was unpacking (finally) in my new apartment, I found a book someone had given me as a going away present. And, I decided I wanted to display the cover, this one word, that said simply believe.
For a brief moment I paused - wouldn't that look a little cheezy? And, then I thought this is who I am now. Which in turn made me think about a time when I wouldn't have even had to ask myself that question. When I was younger, I was a fighter, a positive person who believed in myself, believed I would make it despite some very bad odds. I guess it was sometime during college that it became uncool to be positive, to believe in anything. I think I was reading too much philosophy and it seemed to be more cool (to me) to be cynical. I was never one to follow the crowd blindly, but I found myself more aligned with the counterculture because I didn't fit in with the people who had cookie cutter lives (of course now I know no one has such a thing). Everyone around me for the most part wanted to tear things down instead of build them up.....but I always knew this really wasn't me.
I've been thinking a lot these days about positive thinking, about believing. And, I have to tell you that I see my life and the lives of others around me changing because of some very simple shifts in the way I approach life. With all the uncertainty, the joblessness that abounds, the bad economic news that bombards us daily, I've decided to acknowledge and ignore it. I've decided to make choices based on what I believe can be, not based on the shackles that I sometimes imagine holding me down.
Since making that decision, I have had some good news at work professionally because I took a chance, I have watched a friend who I have been supporting and listening to navigate a very difficult decision to end a 33 year marriage with a triumph of spirt and will that I find amazing, I have seen others in my life who were in fear of making an income start to make real progress in a career they enjoy, I have seen someone very close to me decide to retire early to become a minister and forego a certain amount of income. I have seen people believe that they don't have to accept the negativity and fear, believe things can happen and then act to make their situation different.
These people inspire me. Although we may have to put our shoulders to the boulder tomorrow as we start a new week at work, what if as we start to roll that sucker up the hill we start to think about what could be and make some plans to do something a little bit differently this week. For example if you are unhappy at your job, what if you decide to wake up just a little earlier tomorrow to start working on that resume, or to begin a list of goals that might help you to act to let go of the fear and anxiety. The first step is just to believe that things can be better.
As always, please share your comments, by clicking on the comment link to the top right, or email at firstname.lastname@example.org. Good luck this week navigating the pitfalls and opening your eyes to possibility.
Freeing Sisyphus (aka Melody)
Putting the shoulder to the boulder and taking small steps each day to achieve freedom from the mundane.